Post by rosebud on Aug 2, 2010 1:46:05 GMT -5
Rosebud Greenwood.
The pit in her stomach grew larger every time she remembered Mineya's affected Capitol voice calling her name. She had always known it was a strong possibility. But this year of all years she should've been expecting it! Forty-eight extra entries, added to her six mandatory ones…fifty-four little slips with her name on them. Only eight had Rye's name, thank God. But fifty-eight…that was so many for her.
Luckily she had managed to keep composed for most of the day after. She hadn't messed up the elaborate bun her mother had put in her hair, she hadn't broken down into hysteric sobs until Rye had come into the room. But he'd snapped her out of it quickly. He had given her a good hard shake and made her listen and look him in the eye when he'd spoken.
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"Rose. Rosie, look at me!"
Rose worked hard to stifle and stop her sobbing, wiping her nose childishly on her arm, having no sleeve. Rye gave her another hard shake, making her look straight at him.
"Rosie, you have to promise me that when you're in the arena, no matter what happens, you won't go down without a fight. You got it?! Promise me, Rosebud!"
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She'd promised, though her voice had disappeared halfway through doing so, too choked up to try and get it back. She felt so stupid about it now. Her face was splotchy and her eyes were puffy now, giving it away to the cameras that she had cried. It probably made her look so…weak. And that was the last thing she wanted. She wanted to look cool and confident as she boarded the train. Almost like she was sure she would win. But that plan was ruined.
At least she had a mentor. A past winner. The first one District 12 ever had.
Rosebud fingered her necklace. The token she'd be taking into the arena with her. Her mother had given it to her when she'd seen her for what was quite possibly the last time. Upon thinking about doing her family proud, she corrected her almost-slouching posture and lifted her chin, trying to appear strong. Her knees still slightly knocked together, however.
Oh God how was she going to survive? She could hold her own when she was hunting, but this was totally different! She couldn't fight that well! Mineya gave her the chills and Vivian Lane was probably the toughest person she'd ever seen! Rose couldn't live up to that. Ever. She bit down on the inside of her cheek and tried to think of a strategy before she stepped on the train.